In my life on 4th July 1977 an incident happened in the morning when I was waiting for someone on the sidewalk. For several days, my sleep was just 4 hours and in the morning, I used to meditate on various aspects of cultural events in my mind.
That morning, at 9 a.m. I was thinking about the problem of a boy standing on the side of the road. According to wealth and prestige, her father wanted to do her medical course. Therefore, the father admits in the medical course, but after failing to be interested, the boy is fired from college in a couple of years.
The boy's life is wasted because he neither made the doctor nor the engineer. I thought in my mind who is responsible for this failure in his life. Most people will only blame his father, but some sensible people will consider God as responsible.
Considering this approach, understanding the root of all the problems that occur in the world, I blamed God with my complete inner strength.
Then I felt a tremendous trauma and also heard a voice like the power of lightning - "The actions of his (the boy) are responsible only if it is not of this birth or of previous birth".
I immediately concluded that there is no fault of God in the life of our monarch, and accepting and fulfilling the challenges of life depends only on the individual. Like an addict, I wanted to blame God but God is completely innocent.
It all happened in a short time. The next moment I was surprised that suddenly I fell on the ground. My heart was beating so loud that it felt torn. Last day, I bought the diary in which I wrote four remedies to protect from heart attack, which is due to stress, anxiety and fear for a long time. The four measures are as follows -
1. Drinking two glasses of cold water
2. Greeting the favorite song or movie song
3. Stay calm and calm
4. Delete attention due to reason
I immediately went to the nearby hotel and drank two glasses of water, paid attention to the song that was going on in the radio and the newspapers shook. It took about 10 minutes for the heart to come into normal conditions. After that I started to thank God with heart and wrote in my diary - "I am oblivious to this supernatural experience but I will not be alive in the event of a heart attack."
After this I was looking down at a distance of only two meters in the condition of divine inspection. I was feeling myself in divine state. Spiritual thoughts started coming in my mind and the condition was that I was sometimes unable to write them completely. I was feeling like a stylist in front of a high official. The above mentioned on every page of the diary that "I" should not be used anymore except in the past.
When the concentration or intuition of the mind becomes awakened, then the very simple sayings, which started somewhere or how, started to mean very exciting. In many places I have written - "You have all (root and consciousness) in everything", "You are the power of storm, wave, atom etc.", "You are in the particle particles"
About the nature of God I thought that man understands God as a human. In the same way animals, birds and plants also think in their mind. Since God is absorbed in all and everywhere, therefore it can be considered formless. The soul is also like water and takes the shape of the vessel that is inserted in it. I concluded that God is also in His creation.
Soon I became an internal inspiration that I should read Srimad Bhagavad Gita so that whatever diary I have written or felt, can be confirmed. An appendix given in the Bhagavad Gita published from the Gita Press - "I wanted to read Bhagwati-Goddess with sacrifice while living in the family" because I had a family of three children. Since I was lost in writing and thoughts, I forgot to take necessary care of the body.
Therefore it was necessary to bring the family to its birth place, located two thousand kilometers away from the place of birth. On 8th July 1977, I left the train for the house and reached the third day. For the next ten days, I did not feel sleep anymore, and sometimes I was refreshed by a nap of five-ten minutes.
I concluded that the life of man is like the game of kabaddi. In this, our five virtues - wisdom, wisdom, contentment, compassion and compassion are on one side and unlike them, there are five debunkings - deeds (lust), anger, ego, greed and attachment. Man's life is in danger only if any virtue of it is destroyed due to its anti-debility. Even so, if someone is on the final stairs of compassion, then in the case of being enchanted, God removes the reason for his temptation and brings it back to the right position.
Mending to these five virtues and abandoning the five faults of their opponents leads to unimaginable peace. The mind is free from all kinds of bondage and does not attain reincarnation.
I returned to work on July 18 instead of my family. Due to waking up and running for 14 days, health has worsened and cardiovascular problems have increased. Due to acute contemplation and disappointing economic condition, I came to the realm of reality. But I did not care much about it because my mind was in a position to feel free of charge at that time without any reason.
In such a situation, on August 16, I became convinced that my destiny is certain at 12 o'clock on the night of August 20. In the next few days, I felt the feeling of inevitable death on the heart. Finally, on August 20, when I returned from office, my stomach became stoolless. I did eat a roti even though I did not want to eat in such a severe clock. At around 9 am I went to a doctor's pharmacy, but the doctor went to the party and there was no possibility of returning before 12 o'clock at night.
In the end I thought that let's face death. I requested the wife to stay at 12 o'clock. To watch the time, I was taking bed by keeping an alarm clock and the wife slept even at 11.30. At approximately 11:45 I seem to have died Suddenly, I realized that there was no body and only the breath was going on in the throat. At such a time, being afflicted by the family's fascination, I became confused with logical reasoning from God (invisible or formless) that my three children, who were lying nearby, would become orphans and this family could go to their city only after begging Will happen. Lord, what will happen to you if my life is spared for the sake of these children. My body is not old too because I am only 32 years old. There is no one in the relationship that can take care of these children and follow them.
Sudden arguments stopped. When I got back to the senses, it was 12.05. At that time, only a witness of pure consciousness and some of Amit Anand's return to the jaw of death
Then came the day of September 11. I was reading in a library 7 kilometers away from home that I had the feeling of death on my heart. Immediately after leaving the library, I walked on the road and was thinking in my mind - "Even if I leave this body on the road. I do not have the slightest fear of leaving this body, the body of the body remains in fear of death. What is the responsibility of the whole world on God, which is the creation of this world? "" Take me "- Thinking like this in mind, my body and mind became completely healthy and the mind was filled with happiness.
Thus, these three events (4th of July, 20th August and September 11th) freed me from the false ego of this mind and body, and to maintain this spirit, the relationship with the true God started. In this way, the knowledge path whose objective is enlightenment was accomplished on 20th August and I assumed the protection of God and went on devotional path.